Almost Day

     Okay, so this is something I've been working on for quite a while. "Almost Day" is the musical I've been writing. And I'm determined to actually make it into something worthwhile.

     What is it that makes all of us want to leave some kind of mark in this world? Is it just our constant need to be noticed? Or maybe it's just that we don't want to be forgotten. Maybe it's because we want to have physical evidence that our lives have purpose. Either way, I'm right in there with everyone else. I want there to be something to remember me by. Something I'm passionate about. And that something, I want to be this musical.

     It's a love story. Surprise. Two kids who have grown up together their entire lives as best friends. Dianne and Sam both love astronomy and look at the stars every night. It's the summer before their Senior year in this small seaside town. One night, Dianne finds out that she'll be moving away. She's afraid to tell Sam, because secretly, she loves him. And it turns out, he secretly loves her too. Well, the summer goes on, and it's the night before she has to leave...and she finally tells Sam what's happening. It's devastating. But at the county fair that night, they both decide to tell the other that they love the other. (How sweet. Awwwwwe.) Anyway, it's also got a magical man, moonsand, cool music...I just need to make it all professional.

     So that's what I'm doing. And with some help from my new friend, Jake, I'll be editing the script. I'm going to rearrange and even rewrite some of the songs. It'll be a long process, but I really hope it's worth it.

     I'm always up for support and ideas. So if you're ever at all interested in helping, just let me know. (Maybe I'll even rename a character after you!)

Anyway, a quick update on my life:

     Work- It's just the same as ever. Nothing special.

     Insitute- I actually made it to class on Thursday morning! And I have to say...I really should make it to every class. It's what I need in my life right now.

     Choir- We sang at a retirement home. That was...interesting. And then we went to the corn maze. It was okay.

     Halloween- Well, I was Peeta again this year. It's just an easy costume and I like it. I went to a friend's party with my friend Susannah. It was lots of fun watching Hocus Pocus and The Nightmare Before Christmas, but it got kinda awkward when someone I used to like a lot was there...all cuddled up and...ugh, whatever. Anyway, Halloween was okay.

     Friends- I've been lucky enough to make a connection through Suzie and Callie to a new friend in Ohio. We've been texting and getting to know each other. He's awesome. His name is Jake and it's kind of like we've always known each other. It's just nice to have someone that understands me to talk to. I'm thankful for him.

     Faith- Honestly, I don't know.

     Life is okay right now.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

     Okay, here's a pet peeve of mine. (names are totally random)

• Joe: Did you see that guy?
• Bob: The gay guy? Yeah, what a fag. haha
• Joe: haha Seriously, so gay. How stupid.
• Bob: Gay people are just so weird.
• Joe: I know right!? They need to straighten out.
• Both: hahahaha

     For the record, I didn't make this conversation up. I heard this take place yesterday. All I can say is, those two need to learn a lesson in respect. Everybody is different. Just because somebody is gay or fat or doesn't have the same opinions and beliefs as you, doesn't automatically make you better than them. And I HATE more than anything to associate with people that are stubborn enough to believe that they're better than everyone else. 

     One of the largest problems I've had this entire month is worrying about people judging me. Of course, I'm finally starting to realize how much I shouldn't care about what others think. Anyway, what right is it of theirs to judge me? We're all the same. Just a spirit in a body. Deal with it. I can do what I want as long as I respect others as well. 

     *The Golden Rule* - Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. 

     I wonder if people actually understand the meaning of that. Let me put it in easier terms.

     *The Golden Rule* - If you're nice to people, they'll be nice to you.

     And for the truly stubborn people.

     *The Golden Rule* - Shut your mouth before I slap you.

     Perfect, I hope that gets the point across. I just can't stand it when I'm having a perfectly good day, and then someone has to go and ruin it by people a total butt. Don't be one of those people. Please just be respectful. I know most of you are, and that's awesome. 

     On a much happier note, the Unison choir concert last night was phenomenal. I'm truly loving the people and the music. We start CHRISTMAS music next week. I am so insanely excited. Of course, Halloween is in 2 weeks, so I guess I should focus on that first....and then Thanksgiving...whatever. I'm still super excited for Christmas. 

     Also, I should start figuring out what my Halloween costume will be. Hmm...I'm a total nerd, so characters from books, movies and video games are all possible. Any suggestions? 

     I could finally be Link (From Legend of Zelda)? 

     Thanks for reading! Today is my first FULL day of work. *Super stoked* Hopefully I don't die. So long, Blogosphere. 

Positoovity

     I use this word a lot. Probably annoyingly so. But hey, I've seen it work miracles.

     Okay, so I'm just quoting the song now. If you want to listen to the song while you read, here's the mp3 file. (It's also on my new "Music" page. That's up there. ^^^)



   

     I'll admit, I'm all for the cheesiest Broadway music you can find. And I just have to say, a seagull singing about being "positoovitive" is pretty wonderful. The Little Mermaid is a great show. So if you're listening to this you're probably thinking..."Nic, this is the weirdest thing I've ever heard." Well, sucks to sucks. This is genius. It's incredibly catchy, isn't it? Now I'm just rambling so you actually listen to the whole thing....

     Okay, now for my story. I heard this song for the first time about a week ago, when I got The Little Mermaid Broadway Cast Recording. Things weren't at their highest point. I was in a crisis of sorts. See, I have this thing where even when I'm with people, I can feel lonely. It doesn't make much sense really. I just kind of floated through social settings, went home, then felt all bad about life. It was just a coping mechanism. Let me just say, *DON'T DO THAT*. Seriously, it doesn't help at all. It makes things worse. And I know for a fact that I'm not the only one that does this.

     So when you're in a setting of people that you really like (for me, it was Institute choir) but you just don't feel like you're connecting with anyone, don't just sit there and mope about it! That's why I've done pretty much my entire life. It most definitely isn't worth it. I've found that when I put myself out there and just say a few things, break my comfort zone or simply stand in a different place, it changes the mood completely. Want to know how I found that out? Oh, this is fun...

     I heard "Positoovity". No joke. A song sung by a seagull in a Disney musical changed my mindset. (And truly, that's all it is. A mindset.) I loved the song and it had been stuck in my head all day. Then I was in a social setting where I didn't feel happy! So guess what I finally realized.

"Nic, you idiot. You've had the answer stuck in your head all day. And you are way too stubborn to even realize what it is! You've got positoovity!"

     Yes, that's how I talk to myself. So you know what I did? I sang the song to myself. (Wow, this is so incredibly cheesy...) I just smiled at the fact that I was actually doing this. I don't know if it was the message of the song or simply the fact that I was singing a Broadway song in my head, but it really did work a miracle. Immediately, I felt included. I got into the conversation. I realized, that before, I was pushing myself out of the circle of friends. And that's how I got past that idiotic phase.

     I knew Broadway could actually change me for the better. (Wicked? Anyone? No? okay...)

     Well, there you go. At least now you know why I use the word "positoovity". That doesn't mean it won't annoy you any less. But really, it's a great word. (Better than "poosatricity"...just saying.) Or maybe you'll even use it now! Even on accident. I wouldn't be surprised. It happens to me all the time. That's why I use words like "positoovity", "swankified", "supercalifragilisticexpialidocious" in my everyday language. Sorry, Broadway gets to me.

     I hope you can find a song that helps you. I love music, obviously, so I know it can make a huge difference. Find a song that helps you have a little extra gumption. (You can even comment with your song! I love new music.)

     Have a beautiful day. And keep singing to yourself!